Accountability

I'm honestly not sure when I'm going to make this blog public (i.e. send it to my family and friends) but I"m starting it for some accountability.  Without accountability, this journey that I'm on to lose 100lbs won't be a successful one, I know that.  I'm not going to lie to myself.  See, I had a gym membership for nearly a year, but how many times did I actually use it?  Twice.  That's it.  By joining the program at the local Y, I'm hoping for another layer of accountability -- the trainer and leader of the program.

I have 100lbs to lose.  More really, but that's my goal.  It's for me, for my little boy, for my husband.  I know I'm not healthy and it really is awful.  It's a sinking, pit in the bottom of my stomach.  I despise going clothing shopping, I don't even like to go swimming because I know how awful I look.  We want to have another baby, but I HAVE to get healthy first.

Tomorrow, the journey really starts.  I meet with the trainer and we will be coming up with a plan of action to get my to my goal...can I do it?  I'm full of hope and possibility right now, but what will happen on that morning when I don't want to get out of bed at 6am to go to the gym?  I'll have to dig deeper and find my "hidden grain of steel called will."